Irène Mathieu
toward a unified theory of the artist
we’re at the playground, where all stories start:
my daughter, in a toddler swing, is getting addicted
to centripetal forces. I orbit, entering her atmosphere
to give another push before the dog’s nose pulls me
away, frantic as an inbox chime.
later, the gynecologist becomes astrologer:
clicking through my ultrasound images, she swears
the starry white bodies deep in my pelvis are all
shining rightly, nothing is wrong. so the pain is
phantom? I ask. vestigial spirit? an echo?
now I’m in the kitchen, which is also studio:
I paint tomatoes, cumin, goat cheese
on cast iron. the blood in my hand becomes
garlic-tinged milk. I wonder if to make art
you must be aware you’re making art.
then I’m in bed, theorizing at midnight:
at times when something terrible could have
happened, a parallel story in which it did
unravels slowly beside me. compelled by
circular acceleration, I haunt the threshold.
afterward, morning seeps back in:
what came together in sleep – hundreds of
bats invisible against the blackened sky,
moving as a single body through my dreams –
breaks into a multitude of asynchronous wings.
